No word back from Medusa, which may either be a good sign or a bad one. It's difficult to know. She went to dinner tonight with a Blast From The Past - a guy she had a relationship about five years ago, who suddenly reappeared within the past couple of weeks. The fact that I'm not hearing from her may mean: 1) they went to see some music after dinner, 2) they are having freaky circus sex, 3) she's lying in a ditch someplace. (Three is very unlikely, but I needed a number three.)
Otherwise, what shall I write about. The book, It's progressing, and I hope to be done with it tomorrow, although this is ambitious given the fact that it's 12:20, I've had a bunch of wine, and I've attempted to have a State of the Union with a guy who's totally not my boyfriend. In other words, I have high hopes for tomorrow, but I may need to work on Sunday, too, as much as I don't want to do so. The one thing that was good about the State of the Union is that I do feel like I was totally and completely honest. Totally and completely balls out with everything, although, of course, I am not having the actual balls. I'm being all metaphorical and shit. Ooh! phone!
Oh wow! Infatuation is on the phone! How wild! (Though apparently he's with a girlfriend, which is so annoying.)
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A guy is callling you while he's out with his girlfriend? What's that about?
Sigh...you're probably in bed by now, given time zone differences. but I just arrived, half-drunk, from what felt like a semi-date dinner. Damn.
Tell, Hilaire! and hi!
Ooh ooh yes tell!
And I must say that "freaky circus sex" is a wonderful wonderful phrase.
Hi!
Oh, my New Best Friend here in Scary City (and yes, it's back to being Scary City). This is the person I spend the most time with and feel closest to here. GF (and you know that's still a weird situation) was jealous about this person from the first time I'd ever met him, for some reason. (Yeah, him - which is the reason it won't turn into anything...but I do occasionally have Things with men.) She insists that he's into me, based on no evidence. (And no, she's not a jealous, controling person.) I think it might be all this talk of it that makes it even occur to me. You know, it's constitutive, to get all Foucauldian on us. It's clear that we have LOTS in common, and see each other as real allies in a scene with few of those. And have great talks and are just generally on the same wavelength. So that's why tonight felt like a semi-date - because we went out to a nice restaurant, and then lingered over a dessert elsewhere. Bonding, you know.
Ultimately, he's too earnest for me, though. The mens, they can't be earnest in this parricular way if I'm going to be into them!
Um, and how are you??
The semi-date nature of it could be awkward, if he feels more into it than you because the friendship is so crucial. But what can you do? I'm so glad you have an ally. It's brutal to be in a new place and not feel like you have any.
I'm fine. Reading His Dark Materials.
Crazy, was it a good phone call with Infatuation? Did he call to chat?
on the phone with infatuations - oh lord
Margo, would you recommend His Dark Materials for a person who generally is allergic to fantasy?? I ask this because I hear such glowing things about it, and yet I tend to really resist fantasy and sci-fi. What do you think?
Hello HIlare!
Nothing much I can say over here ---- I'm starting to go crazy from the job market process and took on an additional job on top of that (bleah). But nothing as in _things_ to report. (You ever call your family while dissertating and they ask how it's going and you say it's going well, but you can't point to anything like a milestone or an _event?_ "What did you do?" "I worked." That's my life right now.
And did this dude think it was a possible date? Does he know about the GF?
Sisyphus, I totally know that feeling of not having anything to show for your life, to the folks who ask. Even though you're working so hard. That's one of the hardest things about this life. Yeah, I had it while I was dissertating, for sure - and it was compounded by the ways people still sometimes treated me like I was a kid because I was a student. But I still have it now. I don't know what to say when people ask what's up.
(Dude didn't explicitly call it a semi-date, no. It's just feeling as if it's all heading in that direction, for some reason. There's an aura, ye know? And sometimes he looks all delighted with me, and says things like, "See, you're the only one. You get me." And then I think: oh dear...
And yup - he does know about GF - has met her, in fact, when she visited. But I don't talk about the relationship with him much - nor with anyone here.
Ugh.)
Ok, he's not with the girlfriend in the present tense, he just has one. I was distracted as I typed the end of that post :) But he LIVES with her. And this is the first he's called me since they've been together, conveniently when she's out of town.
First of all TOTALLY read the Dark Materials books. I'm not a fan of fantasy, but they are AWESOME. Dude, anybody who writes a set of books in reference to Paradise Lost is doing something more than fantasy. That said, the first 30 or so pages of the first book were tough for me to get through on the first go around. Hang in. It's totally worth it.
Thanks, Crazy - I shall try them. Probably not till Xmastime, when I make time for pleasure reading.
Mmm pleasure reading --- I hardly remember what that is.
Crazy, do you think that it was the ultimatum to the one dude that drew infatuation dude out of the woodwork? I swear it's a special power or something.
Sis:
Maybe in some psychic way, but not in real life. What drew him our in real life is that his GF is out of town and so he felt it was safe to call me. When I updated him on the FB, he was clueless about what had transpired today. I do love, however, that he thinks I'm fabulous and that he thinks that FB is silly for his confusion.
That sounds pretty good - just someone who thinks you're fabulous. Nice!
He does think I'm fabulous, Hil. And I am likely to meet him for a drink at MLA, and who knows what (stupid, stupid things) that may bring. :)
But of course you are fabulous! Everyone must recognize your fabulosity.
Hil, are you going to do anything/say anything to your Starry Eyed Dude, or just awkwardly wait it out?
I think I just will wait it out. I CANNOT Imagine how to ever approach it. The thing is, he'll never approach it either...he would think he was oppressing me. Which is why he's so earnest, and is also, of course, not true! But anyway, I think we'll just have to let it die. I cannot risk losing this friendship. Or maybe it's just that I cannot imagine broaching the awkwardness. We just need to avoid having the fancier dinners out, with the "let's go have dessert at the cute French place and sit there forever" element.
G'night, Sisyphus and Crazy and Margo. Bedtime. Nice chatting with you all!
Goodnight, goodnight!
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